Time flies my thinking has become mature. I try to talk more with my parents. I tell them my problems although they can't help up. Slowly I handling all these shit by myself because I don't want them to worry much. It's rather to tell them good news. I sick of being strong and tough to face the world alone.

Love's life
Yes, I like him. I've no idea, I fascinated by him when the first time we met. We did keep in touch we did hanging out. But you are the type that hard to fathom and passive. So, I don't think I'm enough patient to wait. Maybe you're right, life is success when you come to workplace and did something great. I normally don't flirt don't play any love game. But when I do that mean I seriously like you.

I'm not those girls who only got money in their eyes. I don't expected much, as long as we are real love we can walk til the end. I sometimes wish you were mine now. I'm not sure what's gonna happen but I can take you for granted.

My 18th Birthday, ate a fancy dinner with my besties and then sing K like no tomorrow. That time my 3rd ex ain't free to gimme surprise I guess? But he did hand made a box of choco and gifted a minnie to me. Well, that wasn't awesome I know. 

My 19th Birthday, purposely went back to hometown for a week and celebrate with my 4th ex. He learned to cook lamb chop for me. He bought 21 flowers. That was really sweet and touch. Even met with his parents. But we did not last long.

My 20th Birthday, all was so happening. Last minute decide to clubbing. Drank like no tomorrow with friends. They requested to 'blow' the black label for 10 seconds or kiss my 2nd ex. And so I kissed him and touched the tongue. I realized that all these years I held for so long should let go because I got no feeling at all. I know that's a great news for my own.

My 21st Birthday, I still awaiting and hoping for it. Perhaps I can find my true and last long relationship.

Yes. Is HIM
The moment he told his friends he remember because of he broke up with his ex
This is so ridiculous and a lil hurt me
But who cares

I'm just fall for you
You never know why
Maybe I found you to replace all the foolness I had done before
I used to think of you everyday. Do you?

Your advices did work on me
I'm no longer to held backward
You just set me free from the past
Maybe I'm not prefect as your ex
But I'm better, I'll no longer like her hurt you deeply

I remember the first time we met
I remember the awkward moment for the first time
And the funny moment for the very first time
Perhaps in future you'll be mine

I'm back to here since I got no one talk to
I don't simply express my feelings toward others
Not because I don't trust them
I just feel like Hrmm, they are not really a good listener
Maybe it's my problem?
Even I told them my problems
They might just though that I'm kidding
Or else a happy person like me got no sadness



Well, I do seriously
I got lots actually
I just didn't show 'em all up
Because I know no one will pathetic you in this reality world
Trying to be tough ain't no wrong

I just wanted to wish you bliss always
Get the one you want to be with
Although I feel like reluctant
I just don't know why every time you catch my attention
It's been 4 years WHY I STILL CARE
Sometimes, it's better to stay a place that without you
I don't talk I don't really care unless we meet we hang out
I knew IT'S an IMPOSSIBLE for every conclusion

I denied when people asked me whether still waiting for you
But actually I used to it
I always wish you to come back, but reality don't
I tried so hard to keep a good relationship with others but failed
Comparison do kills me, you never know how I miss all the you
My weakness is always you




Since you're going for your another
I'll try my best to get my happiness as well

HOLIDAY! VACATION? No ~~ =(

Seems abandon my blog for a long long time
well, short sem had over
I aim CGPA 3.0 for this sem
seriously, I did put enough efforts on it
hope that no fail for this sem
I'm now in holiday and rot in KL until the day back to Sandakan
planning to go Thailand but end up cancelled due to bombing attack
Urgh! How could it be? Why just so coincidence?

I'm not a love doctor or professional
why do people seek me when they got relationships problems?
I not really know how to confess or give any advice
c'mon, I'm single and I don't know your partner well
as an outsider shouldn't give much comments

Why do people asking the same question every time =S
I'm just sick about it
' with your boyfriend? '
' why you no boyfriend? '
' you look not bad impossible no boyfriend '
Hello? if hanging out with someone else go for vacation can be normal friends okay?!
I got boyfriend or not is it your business or PROBLEM?!

I wondering why I got no shopping mood after the final
I just seek for tasty food
and I gonna dead on my weight x.X
     Dear Weight, can you please don't increase when I ate something tasty?
Just, please?
I know it's an impossible
well, will go for workout soon!

Another new semester had started few weeks ago
And I felt like hell ya, so damn fast
I late back to KL and skipped few tutorials
Due to so, my friends and I go and met up the head of SBS school
Well, she.. actually is a he but then his voice just so woman !
Whatever we lied end up you need to approved

Whenever I think something might be alright end up disappointed me
Life isn't fair unless you fight for it

Friends always ask me find someone to date or
Ning, you got dating ah?
Got any target?
Impossible la, unbelievable
Bla bla bla
At least someone will pass with you on the special days
I was like what?! I think I'm enjoying the single life
Special days mean nothing for me
If you got a lover everyday is just the same
The different is just the memories between both of you
Maybe you're lonely or else so you need to find someone
But I wanna find someone I really love even I'm not lonely


People always said,
More than friend but not yet reach the couple relationship
I was like WTF man =.=
Make it all clear and easy
Got feel then be together have a nice date
No feel? Get off far far away


You can't force
You can't predict


My life still got a long way to go
I wondering whether is it a right way
I just so confused.........

CHINESE NEW YEAR
- New hairstyle
- New hair colour(not really satisfy)
- New weight(gosh, killing me!)
- New car(damn enjoying the fast of it)
Woolala ~

Its been a long long time
I wish to back to my princess room
- Air-condition
- Comfortable
- Nice bed
- Nice feel
- Nice lights
- BIG !!
- OWN TOILET
Awesome !


Food?
It was just a heaven!

Places might be a lil BORED
Since mostly shops closed at 12a.m
I got not much places to go

Finally 1 more to go, that's tomorrow
After that I gonna be freedom
I wanna shopping I wanna sleep without any worry
I wanna back to my PRINCESS ROOM!
At least better than KL here
I wanna drive my lil baby

Sometimes something are meant to be
Whenever you didn't handle it very well
And you had become sucks
I keep wondering and wondering

Easy come easy go
Its take few seconds to fall in love
But few years to understand a person
That's why I never judge anyone
I handle everything slow and steady
Unless I see something you done badly with my own eyes
You're gonna get the dead penalty by me

2 down 3 to go
And the most hard 3 subjects
Sighing again and again

Countdown for going back to hometown
9 more days
WOooHooo ~!
Seriously, I'm not really wanna go back
Almost living at KL for a year
Used to KL life
More fun compared with my hometown

I just got 3 important things to do in my hometown
1. Meet all the relatives
2. Hunt for seafood
3. Meet all my friends over there
After all these I gonna bored like hell
Regret to bought a late ticket to back KL

It's 2012 !!

Woolala ~

I'm getting 20

What the heck

I just can't believe that I'm getting to 20

12, 15, 18? It was like yesterday

Having an expensive unworthy meal at Look Out Point with classmate

Countdown with fireworks everywhere

So damn nice !

Went to course mate's house to sing K with beers and alcohol

That was really awesome

But..

Hrmm.. well, wondering...........

Will never get myself drunk in strange place

The first time I got home at 7.30 early in the morning

When we first leave is around 5 something 

We went for ' dim sum ' only home

Hell ya,

We still can enjoy during EXAM

How cool

Seriously, my holiday mood is totally ON

DAMMIT!

It's really sucks when end of year I still need to exam!