I just wanna run away,
Run away from all of my problems
And pain and never come back
I don't get it, why do you mean so much to me?


I dreamt you that night
How wonderful as reality doesn't happen at all
How beautiful as reality will never happen
But the next day was my nightmare happened
So horrible !

If its never happened
There will be no rumours
But its ain't real you won't be so angry
I.. perplexed


If I were given a chance?


Let it be, it will never the end yet I guess
I sick of your excuses
I'm not a fool to let you fooled

BLACKLIST

An application I found in Nokia Ovi Store
I downloaded and
I find my friend to try on it
They text me, I can hear the sound but can't see the message they sent
They call, my phone will be ring a while and it auto to reject the call
What an awesome application! HAHA
Heart it so much, use to blacklist unwanted message and call
Too bad it just can blacklist 1 person if more than that need to purchase

Went to Croxx with schoolmates yesterday
It might be midnight and the early morning? HA!
Drink drank drunk? Not me!
I'm steady to handle it =)
I was nearly heart attack to sit my friend's car
He turn without step break
Even the roundabout he just step the oil and cross it
So damn dangerous =(
Lucky that I back home safety! LOL

Phew ~ I found my SPM slip!
I suddenly think of my slip and I go find it out
But then eh?! How come not in the papers that I put together?
I was nervous, angry and so on
Calling my friends to ask n ask
And finally my friend text me back was in his car
Thanks God really!
My parents even scold me for that before I told 'em I found it
Argh! Who cares, I found it in the end =)

Well, my result ain't that good as I thought

2A's! Sigh ~

I felt so unfair you know

Because others trying the dirty way to get 5 or 6A's or above

Just because they are different classes so they can did so?

That was not their effort at all

So so soooooooooooo fucking UNFAIR!
Don't ever compared art and commerce classes with SCIENCE class
I hate it!
So what you got so many As
You just cheating all the way
Don't be proud please
Loathed it so much!
=(
Let it be let it pass
Talk much for nothing good =.=
Sorry for talking bad
Just wanna released my unfairness!
People will never care which class you studied
They only care how many As you got
That hurts ><

Hrmp! I..

Lol, what reaction should I give?

Stunt + Speechless

I feel so disgusting bout it
I never thought that got such thing

I'll never give you a damn anymore since you're sucks max!

Ewwwwwww ~!

Stop acting naive in front of me

This only make yourself sooo flagitious!

Oh boy >< Getting nervous and nervous since later around 10a.m the result will be release
Heart beating so fast
So abnormal
My future my life = SPM
HAHA
Sincere wish everyone lucks to their result!
Well, my target 3 or 4As
But I guess it might only be 1 or 2As.
Aiks! Sleep now and later will be the day of my life

Goodnight!

And today I realized something shocked me surprising me

Unbelievable

Very LOL

And I'm gonna ignore you start from today

I feel that you're so damn disgusting!

Sometimes I remain silent doesn't mean that I don't know anything

Fuck you bastard!

你的行为让我好累好累也喘不过气，

既然你选择了朋友就把甜言蜜语收起来。

我……承受不起。

我们真的要过了很久很久，才能够明白，

自己真正怀念的，到底是怎样的人，怎样的事。

什么事情都会习惯的，譬如别离和思念。

我以为只要走的很潇洒，就不会有太多的痛苦，

就不会有留恋，可是……

为什么在喧闹的人群中会突然沉默下来，

为什么听歌听到一半会突然哽咽不止。

我不知道自己在期待什么，不知道自己在坚持什么，

脑海里挥之不去的，都是过往的倒影。

哭，并不代表我屈服；

退一步，并不象征我认输；

放手，并不代表我放弃；

正如我微笑，并不意味着我快乐

唯有选择放弃你，痛苦就会减少

每个人都有一个死角，

自己走不出来，别人也闯不进去。

我把最深沉的秘密放在那里。

每个人都有一道伤口，

或深或浅，盖上布，以为不存在。

我把最殷红的鲜血涂在那里。

你永远也看不见我最爱你的时候，

因为我只有在看不见你的时候，才最爱你。

同样，

你永远也看不见我最寂寞的时候，

因为我只有在你看不见我的时候，我才最寂寞。

也许，我太会隐藏自己的悲伤。

也许，我太会安慰自己的伤痕。

也许，你眼中的我是无所谓，

所以，你从不考虑我的感受。

我不是为了显示自己的大度，

也不是为了体现自己的大方。

只想让你知道，如果没了我的感情，

你的责备也减少！你自由了！

=)

I Quit !

I Quit !

I Quit !

There got nothing worth me to do so

Its enough for me, for everyone

Maybe it had been foredoom that never belongs to me

Why do I forcing myself?

Why do I make myself so toilsome?

It was so masochistic 

Girl, listen to me listen to your own heart : not worth =)

He ain't yours

So let go and you will be more freedom than holding it hard

You feel relieve by letting go

Someone is waiting for you at the next station

Move on! Get a life =)

Chillax ~ !

And I just wishing that all the good things goes to you

This is what I can do lastly

Sincere sorry for everything from bottom of my heart =)

Thanks for everything and everything!

Let me disappear and

I need to get myself back badly!

Learning How To Smile =)

谁让你心动谁让你心痛

谁会让你偶尔想要拥她在怀中

谁又在乎你的梦

谁说你的心事她会懂

谁为你感动

如果女人总是等到夜深

无悔付出青春她就会对你真

是否女人永远不要多问

她最好永远天真为她所爱的人

谁让你心动谁让你心痛

谁会让你偶尔想要拥她在怀中

谁又在乎你的梦

谁说你的心事她会懂

谁为你感动

只是女人容易一往情深

总是为情所困终于越陷越深

可是女人爱是她的灵魂

她可以奉献一生为她所爱的人

如果女人总是等到夜深

无悔付出青春她就会对你真

只是女人容易一往情深

总是为情所困终于越陷越深

可是女人爱是她的灵魂

她可以奉献一生为她所爱的人

Listen to this song while think of you

Once again, my tears drop

I know it will never worth

I might be tough to handle this

But why...

I rather don't spoke out

I rather don't care

I rather don't admit

I rather duplicity

I rather you never know

I rather camouflage like I'm happy

It will always better than knowing what the truth is

H E A R T  A C H E

Without you fulfill my heart

My heart had been occupied by emptiness

I felt so cold

Your love, your roses ; my tears, I'm tired

Cant go back and I don't expect your love

I try to get along with people around me

Get into strangers but I still cannot relieved

Unable to get rid of the person's shadow

Whenever I see familiar names and back

Unbearable desperately wanted to run

Time will goes into memories

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

Being silent in daze

Wish to turn those memories into smogs and lifted up somewhere else

But no matter how hard I tried, its failed

Involuntary tears running down a blush's face

Heart ache like dying, can't breathe no more

Save me from where I fall

Hold my hand and lead me the way

Bring me back to my shelf to be the real me

What the heck wrong with me =.=

Dammit!

I even know what's situation they're but why I did so

That ain't me! Since when I changed so scheming =(

LOATHED myself so much for being like that

If I didn't drunk, everything will be another story

Why do I made myself drunk.

Argh! Damn embarrassing

Please wake me up from being silly and did something so damn embarrassing

How I wish to forgot what had happened

Deleted the memory and throw billion miles away

So that noone will know whats going on

Noone will remember it

Noone will unhappy I guess

Noone will get hurt I think

Silly me!

Drunk will never suffer than heart ache

I cried? I don't know why I cried =.=

I never cry in front of people just wanna let people knowing that I'm tough

But why do I cried last night?

Urgh!

I don't really remember last night

I just know I were suffer enough from being like a toy that you can get it whenever you want

and you can dump it whenever you weary of it

Sorry for did anything over

Sorry for disturbing

Sorry for anything

Sincere SORRY !

我捉不住你，如同你捉不住我那颗跳动着，却摇摇晃晃的心！
你看不到我内心所承受的痛苦，同样看不到我内心也有一道伤痕。
再也没有人为我点上一盏心灯，再也没有人可以真正去读懂我内心的忧伤。
宁静的夜，给我增添了一份孤独，一份寂寞！
那么，我只要让自己独自一个人再次去享受这份孤独，这份寂寞，这份宁静。


一个人的时候，总会默默的找个寂静的角落，来缓解被生活压迫的喘不过来气的心情。
一个人的时候，总会静静的想一想以前的自己，是多么的单纯和无知。
一个人的时候，总会慢慢的等待愈合的伤口，等待着心开始变的麻木。
一个人的时候，心情总会不佳，想着自己，是多么的孤独。

寂寞不痛，忍耐不算什么，忍让也没什么，痛的是你忽冷忽热。

我不哭，不代表我没事，我笑，别天真以为我真的笑，我的笑永远属于伪装笑容。
如果你不是真心,

就不要轻易插足我的旅程,
我很容易感动、很容易满足,
也许你不经意对我的好,
足以我记得许久、感动许久,
也许会因为你不在意的举动,
会伤心很久..


其实，我很累了
我习惯假裝堅強，习惯了一個人面对所有
我不知道自己到底想怎樣
有時候我可以很开心的跟每个人说话，可以很放肆的笑
可卻沒有人知道，那不过是伪装，很刻意的伪装
我可以让自己很快乐很快乐，可是却找不到快乐的來源
只是一味地傻笑……
1 个人坚强久了，身心都疲倦。不懂还在撑什么。

如果，时间可以让我們淡忘曾经所拥有的一切

忘却那些纏綿的回憶

那麼，我們是否可以從此素不相识？
好多时候都想大醉一场

醉到一塌糊涂，醉到天昏地暗
好让自己忘掉自己是女人，忘掉自己的一切

那些难以愈合的伤痛，那些无法面对的人

还有那些无法走出的阴影……

一起了，并不代表就是爱；
离开了，并不代表不爱了。

矛盾啊！

我哭过，是因為我真的爱过
想起昨天的執著，眼泪还是忍不住的掉落
忘了彼此的承诺，留著它对我們都是折磨前路雖寂寞，也不要闪躲
离別后，就各自寻找自己的幸福与快乐。

爱情的世界很大，大到可以装下百种委屈；
爱情的世界很小，小到挤下三个人就喘气。
说爱一个人，不一定就是爱他；
说不爱一个人
却又不一定就是不爱他
对爱情，有时，我们都是口是心非 :)

你认识我时,我不认识你;
你喜欢我时,我认识你;
你爱上我时,我喜欢你;
你离开我时,我爱上你？
我和你、从相识、心动、直到在一起
我知道、我们都没错
只是我们都错在错的天时和地利
爱 累 了
什么都别想
就去睡一觉吧
明 天 又 是 新 的一 天 ，新 的 开 始 =)
晚 安 ♥

Don't try to offend girls, if not you might get suffer than dying

Girls' war, between jealousy and rumours

Who cares?

That's their mouth their own business

What for we need to bother much?

If you got time to bother much why don't you do something more worth

One day, they talk until they feel tired sure will stop it

Let's stop everything right now

I feel like so unreal
Feel like being fool

I don't wanna step too deep on it
Adiós ~!

And sometimes when we touch

The honestys too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I want to hold you till I die

Till we both break down and cry

I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Female's lies or Male's trust?

Female's camouflage or Male's conceal?

What do we want, what do we need

Should be what do I want from you and why are you doing so

Complicated, Confused, Hung up, Hesitation

A song from you for me was like implying what I did before

I feel like I'm sorry enough

I felt like I were so wrong

Maybe the way you treat everyone is just the same and I might think too much

Is that a revenge for me?

Impetuous was so wrong for making any kind of decisions

Perhaps every of my thought are just selfish and over much confident

Sometimes, I'm mature but

When in troubles, my mature gone instantly

Don't try to sympathy me

I don't need any sympathies

I'll feel myself so odious by letting people sympathy me

A longer time can know a deeper me

A longer time can know a stupid me

A longer time can know a stubborn me

A longer time I can fall for you? HAHA but how long, who knows

How I wish I'm brave enough to tell you everything

But as what I knew, you wouldn't answer it

HA! Forget bout that and get a life =)

My dad got sick =(

He was like so weak, I were worries him

But I just don't know how to concern him

And I did what he had did to me like when I was sick
" dad, do you feel better now? " shy me
" I bathe just now, feel like so hot. You touch my forehead see whether is it so hot " he murmured
" ya, really so hot. Drink more water and remember eat medicine! " Touching his forehead
" did you eat your medicine and visit a doctor? " Acting like he did before
" I visited a doctor but still very hot " he murmured
" Okay, you should rest more and sleep early later! " I answer him softly

Will his heart feel warm?

Old age, easily fall sick and body getting weaker

God please kindly heal my dad, Amen ~

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I worried you!

Few hours before you told me you were fine you were safe

But you were trapped outside the street

You hope to get back to Malaysia

But just now you didn't reply

May God bless you and your friends over are in safe with no injure

Amen~

If only I'm rich I would like to buy few airplanes to safe the people over there

If only I'm rich I would take my flight over there

If only I'm rich I would do anything to help 'em up

Just if only I'm rich ~

So please God listen to our prayers and stop this disaster

Hope that there are not much people get killed

Tragic!


Perhaps I still got the chance to travel to Japan next time
I haven't get to there yet

IU-Cruel Fairy Tale
This song I strongly recommended to you all
The 1st time I listen and I search for the English Subtitle
Then I got myself addicted to it so much =)
The singer was so cute with a lovely voice!
Enjoy it.


Nothing lasts forever, nothing really matters
Fairy tales might a happy ending for kids
Remember still a kid,
I used to wrote some of my dreams and put it somewhere
Perhaps someday might become true
You know, that was what fairy tales told us
But when we grew up, fairy tales were just a lie
It might be existed but the ending might not as perfect as in real life
Everything we as a human being we cannot predict
Anything might happens anytime

From my experience,
Well, I do believe in fairy tales for years
But not for now, never!
Of course the very first page of the fairy tale might be so sweet
Everything goes smoothly and lovely
When come to the ending,
There are so big different
We will never know what's gonna happen the next!
Hurt? or Happy Ending?
Mostly is tearing with some of the happy memories
That's why I heart the chorus much

' Nothing Lasts Forever, Nothing Really Matters '

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有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆。­

有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。­

有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。­

有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。­

有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。­

有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。­

有时候，希望时间为自己停下，做完己还没来得及做的事情。­

有时候，想一个人躲起来脆弱，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。­

有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。­

有时候，夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡。­

有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。­

有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。­

有时候，觉得自己拥有着整个世界，一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。­

真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。­

有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。­

有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢的无影无踪。­

有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。­

有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。­

有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。­

有时候，听到一首歌，就会突然想起一个人。­

有时候，希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全感。可当那个可以疼你的人出现的时候，你却偏执地退隐。­

有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。­

有时候，被别人伤害，嘴上讲没事，其实心里难过的要死。­

有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。­

有时候，很容易感动别人的关怀，有时候却麻木地像个笨蛋。­

有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，任凭叹息，自己却无能为力。­

其实，有时候，真的会想这么多。。。 ­

丢了的自己，要记得捡回来…